Saturday, 23 May 2009

Our Real Life

Another day at work, not a lot different than any other. Perhaps not as many emails from my wife as usual, but I keep busy enough not to notice (nice work honey). An uneventful walk home and I open the door to find Erin all dressed up (she's usually wearing pj's) and looking good, but not making eye contact. Immediatly I pick up on the sweaty palms without holding her hand and the perma grin without seeing her face. 'She's got a surprise for me' I think to myself. How exciting, but I didn't have a clue! She led me into the sitting room and couldn't hold back. Usually it takes a little prodding from me to get the surprise, but not today. "I think we're PREGNANT!!" Wow. So many times we talked about waiting and trying for a baby after my Master's degree, finding a new job, moving and starting our 'real life'. It's amazing the clarity with which I realized now was the right time. Her smile and joyous tear filled eyes lit up my heart. As if that wasn't enough, Erin made a baby bag with a book, some onesies and a tiny bib that read 'I love Daddy'. HA!!! I'm going to be a daddy!!! We now realize the 'real life' we were looking for had started years ago and it's getting better by the day : )

Thursday, 21 May 2009

+ = Pregnant

May 19th - home from London. Bought 3 home pregnancy tests without Kevin knowing. 1 vaguely positive, 2 negative. I think the 2 negative were a result of diluted urine - I chugged two bottles of water prior to taking them. What does this mean though? I will give it a day & then go get more.

May 21st - purchased another 2 home pregnancy tests (the expensive ones). 2 positives. A million and two emotions running thru my head - Overall feeling:

–adjective very happy or proud; jubilant; in high spirits: an elated winner of a contest.

I spent the next few minutes pacing the house wondering what the best way to tell Kevin was. I decided on making a gift bag & wearing the new shirt he bought me the previous weekend. It was still only 7 in the morning. So much had happened already! Our lives changed forever by peeing on a stick at 6:30am!!! Thank goodness for 24hr stores. FINALLY I get to go down the baby aisle! Yesssssss. I bought bibs, onsies (both neutral colors), a book, vitamins & lotion to put in the bag for Kevin. Now 8am - what the heck am I going to do the rest of the day. I can't possibly call anyone for fear I won't be able to hold it in & I must keep all email correspondence to Kevin to a minimum....he usually knows when somethins up. As if he can feel my sweaty palms on the keyboard. Not sure how I managed to keep myself busy for the rest of the day but I did. I hear the keys in the door & and my heart was beating so fast and my upper body went numb. Only ever time I felt that feeling was when Kevin proposed. The rest I'll let Kevin tell :)